So I went to bed around 5:30, got to sleep (the first time) around 6:30 after the pain let me relax enough to drop off. If it hadn't been for Candis's comforting presence it would have been much later in the morn because of the slowly increasing persistent pain and other issues.
I had just dropped into the early sleep stage, where dreams start to form when I woke up, gasping and feeling like I was smothered and was waking up from it. My head pounded from oxygen dep and I know something was inhibiting my body's ability to breathe and it wasn't asthma, which is very different. My mom pointed out I could have pneumonia and not know it but this has happened several times over the last month plus so I don't know how likely that is. This happened at least 10 times that I could recollect in the hour or two I slept.
I theorize it could be some rather dangerous form of sleep apnea but I'm not really sure I believe it, just playing devil's advocate against my own primary theory. My primary theory is that it's just like my legs or arms, that my own mental commands (conscious or otherwise) aren't always being transmitted properly out of the brain/spine and my lungs stop working because of that.
I hope and pray my appointment on the 30th is the miracle we've been waiting for because if this starts happening regularly I fear it will lead to permanent brain damage due to oxygen deprivation leading to cell death. I don't know if it has any heavily threatening lethal dangers at this point but I really don't want to find out either.
Dustin is sick and my wife is having surgery tomorrow so I may slack on this a day or so. It seems harder to do this. Probably because it sucks talking about this stuff every day, makes you feel like you can never escape it. I'm going to try and be good, for medical documentation anyway.
-Andy-
"Life is Worth Dying For"
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